Indefatigable Artist Podcast Ep. 12 - Say It Now
And it was on Week 12 that I had to push back the publish date. The last week finally caught up to me. I was able to adjust and adapt last week, sorry the audio wasn’t the best, but made it brief. But hope the message still came across.
This week has been a complete roller coaster for me.
Dealing with the loss of an Uncle who has been a father figure for me, most of my life. And in dealing with this pain I return to one of the themes of this podcast.
I also talk about opening up to be vulnerable, so I captured this moment in time that I am dealing with this.
Today, brought me back to September 2016. When I dealt with the loss of another prominent father figure of mine.
There is a line in Kill Bill written by Quentin Tarantino that has so perfectly described my situation. Like any man without a father, I have a collection of father figures.
And what they gave me most was their time and energy. That is what will live on. When we pass on, it’s just another transformation. Identity and experience transforms into something else.
It’s that same time and energy that makes it so painful. It’s the loss of that energy, loss of their presence.
The following is a recording I did after saying goodbye one last time to not just my Uncle, but one of the few father figures I have had throughout my life. I captured this moment and it was very therapeutic to me. I felt like I could be vulnerable in this moment, be open to that wave of pure sadness that had washed over me. That hurt and pain and frustration at the situation. Like why does Cancer take some of our most beloved humans. I hope listeners can appreciate this and forgive my sniffles throughout. I couldn’t help it. And finally, I hope by sharing this very emotional and raw moment, that it will help others embrace their own vulnerabilities, whether it be sadness and frustration or anger, whatever it is, express it healthily, embrace those emotions, be grateful for them and be grateful to those who have positively impacted your life. Let them know, say what you have to say while you have the ability to say it.
Out of respect I didn’t name my uncle, those who know, know, and those who don’t don’t. this is more about the connection I shared with him, and to tell others to say what they have to say while they have the ability to say it. Say it now, say it proud, no matter what it is, let it out, see how it feels, see if it doesn’t just change your life.
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