I realized I had a choice. I realized the greatest currency there is in the universe is the effect that you have on others. I made the choice that I wanted to have a lasting impact on not only those around me in the present moment, but those I have yet to meet, those future generations that will come along.

I love the power art has to bring people together, and to bridge any language barriers there may be.

I have tried to create art that has a feeling to it.

In the description for the MetaParty Vibes pieces I put that I want to Curate Trippy Vibes, for Life is but a Meta Party and your Vibe Attracts Your Tribe. Know that the greatest currency there is in this universe is the effect you have on others. What effect did you have? Was it positive?

Step back & Stare at this NFT, take a deep breathe. There will always be more ideas than time, just as there will be more thoughts than spoken words. Say what you have to say while you have the ability to say it. Be bold, face hard truths about yourself. Face that vulnerability, embrace that feeling, grow from it. You woke up today, with that simple act, you’re already more resilient than the day before if you choose to see it.

I also want my art to help broaden perspective.

Sure there are millions of people making countless hours of videos and it’s all just noise at this point. But the energy I feel on days that I get up to do this podcast, this is that juice, this is that universal life energy that is passing through me, coursing through my veins and firing my neurons in my brain at a rapid rate. I really hope others can feel that, feel the passion in these words. I know these podcast episodes are just a splurge of words and it may not even make total sense, but like I said in Episode 18, they are just momentary glimpses into my life as an indefatigable artist.

I am just going along this journey and have gone many years like this. I feel like I have been rather quiet up until this point. I unfortunately didn’t take content creation seriously as so many did. I grew up in the age of the streamer, and many my age took content creation seriously and made a ton of money off it. I was just focused on writing my novels, trying to find my way visually as well. Learning. Constantly learning, never not learning. Growth mindset. What happened, happened and could not have happened any other way. I am here now and am now, seeing the true value that content creation can provide. 

To that point of content creation, I have been going hard to finish off the month of May so that I could start June anew. Wanted to catch up on everything I felt I was behind on. Uploading videos to YouTube, getting the blog posts done for each episode. Hoping to be fully caught up by the end of today.

I did wake up on June 1^st feeling pretty fresh. It also coincided with the first night I wasn’t waking up cause of my allergies, I could breath, so it really was like a breath of fresh air for me. I actually love how that coincided with the new month, new month, no allergies, let’s gooooo!

I was hoping to have all of the blog posts done, still a couple behind, but I want to do them right, I want to include all of the necessary links, images and video embeds. I don’t want to publish these blogs just for the sake of publishing them.

Then I have blog posts I want to do for other topics, like the one I just published about the virtual Japanese Café that features the Bleace Novels. Special thanks to Nyankee who put that together and not only featured 3D Bleace books in the Metaverse for the first time, but also put up one of the MetaParty Vibes pieces on the wall that matches the build perfectly! 

Just a note on Web 3 and the power it has to connect people from around the world unlike any other time in human history. We have met a few Japanese friends in the space and have connected through our art and get to virtually hang out at concerts and fashion events. In the Metaverse there is a sense of presence that you feel when you are in these spaces with others, a presence that has been missing on Web 2 Platforms like Facebook, Zoom, Twitter, Instagram, etc. Just so grateful to this technology as I would have never met so many wonderful people who live across the globe.

The café was just too cute and the perfect build and colors for the Bleace books. At the café, you can get small, medium, large, and bucket size coffee. I like that. I definitely would go bucket size on the, on the coffee. Loved the donuts on the table. For a metaverse build, it's all about the little things so the donuts on the table are a great touch. The build itself is a shipping container which I thought was really cool as you see that a lot right now where people are transforming them into tiny homes, big fad right now.

Definitely check out the build in Decentraland if you can or the Fade Away Bunny NFT Project as it’s a really cool story that Nyankee is developing. This blog and this video is just a small token of appreciation for a fellow Web 3 Artist in the space who we have MetaPartied with for so long.

I want to do what I can to make this a more emotionally intelligent world that we live in. I have come to this conclusion based on questions about this podcast, some I asked before I started of course, but it was through just doing it. Just fucking doing it that I seem to have chiseled away at the rock to figure out what was waiting there to be revealed.

And it was those episodes I did with my questioning of Chat GPT.

How can humans intellectually compete with the exponential rise of artificial intelligence?

Emotional intelligence and creative problem solving.

We have to get more creative on how we solve problems. 

Solution-based mindset.

We can keep pointing at the problems all around us, but what are we doing as a collective to help solve those problems?

We all have an individualistic responsibility. An individualistic response, each and every one of us to our environment. What can I do to help? Just yell and scream about there being a problem? What good will that energy do? Why not put that energy to a creative solution.

But like I said, so many just tune out, they go on autopilot, blank stare, just barely getting by. And I hear you, I get it, life is fucking hard, dying is easy, life is hard, life is a hard arduous journey, to where? Where are we going with all of these daily problems that seem to just pile up on our back, one solid rock at a time? holy fucking shit I am going to collapse right fucking here, god damn it I can’t fucking take it any longer, just let me lay here and sleep. At least when I sleep I can escape the harsh sting, the incessant ringing in my fucking ear, at least when I sleep I don’t think about those who are no longer here with me, those whose voice I will never hear again, those whose laugh will never brighten my day again. At least when I sleep, I can dream, I can dream of the life that I actually want to live but have been to afraid to act on, too afraid to learn what I have to do, too afraid to face those hard truths about myself, I lost my self confidence because of my environment as a teen and feel like I have spent years trying to find it again.

I talked last episode about the dream I had of going back to high school where I was mentally older, more emotionally intelligent. How it was a mindset how I had to get in the right mindset and rise above my environment.

I then put that to the test when I went to perform poetry for the first time the other night. First time performing poetry before a live audience, first time performing poetry in New York City. I had intended on doing the performance from memory, but I feel like I failed in that, I had practiced as much as I could leading up to it, but it was like I heard them say Bleace is next and it was like my mind went blank. I got in my head about the whole thing. And just a note, another thing that actually did throw me off, but again I know it’s allowing my environment to affect me, but there was a stand up comedian that went up before me and that too, just threw me completely off.

I had only been to one open mic there before and that was all poetry and music. This time there were more stand up comedians, which is great, nothing on that at all, it was more of a mental preparation thing for me. Hearing laughs and laughing myself before going up to perform the poems I had lined up just through me off concentration.

So I did use my phone as a crutch and still think it went well. It’s a starting point. It’s growth, I am going to learn from that experience and get better as I go. I do intend on doing a lot more open mics and book readings throughout New York. 

I was really inspired by the headliner poets of the night, they were really incredible, they could speak from memory and really perform their poems, even stopping to engage with the audience, repeat a line and keep going. Mad skills with the mic, just really inspiring for someone who is learning how to perform, and it’s learning how to perform poetry that I wrote in the quietness of my own office setting. These poems I had read in twitter spaces before, and I will say Twitter Spaces have been a great help in practicing reading my poetry before an audience and seeing the reaction and getting feedback.

I am someone who has been behind the camera mostly and behind the keyboard, just because someone can write doesn’t mean they can do that writing justice if they were to read it aloud. It’s like I know how I intended it to be read, but doesn’t mean I have the ability to carry that out. So it’s been a process of figuring it out, Twitter Spaces have been a great place for me to do that over the past year. Grateful to the poetry spaces and to all those who have joined.

And I am grateful to everyone who listens to the Indefatigable Artist Podcast. This has been a great place for self expression. It’s definitely got me writing more poetry and performing that for you as well. I want to end this episode by doing the same reading I did for the Live Poetry Performance.